Three months in and STILL going!

So, here I am - three months in!  I've lost 21.8lbs since January 1st.  This weight loss is not as quick as I'd like, but it's livable.... which is different for me.

I cannot wait to be in my own home again so I can start lifting heavy weights.  I have realized that I NEED to do what I like or I just won't do it.

The 21-day fix meal plan is so unbelievably sustainable!  It's soooooooo easy.  And for the first time in a LONG time, I feel like I'm actually eating a balanced diet.  I'm just moving forward.  

My goal for the next two weeks is to break 190.  I've gotta do it!!!!

I'm getting stronger, harder and more physically fit.  My stamina is better.  My size 12 jeans fit comfortably.  There are so many positives to report!

I just need to keep working!!!

Another re-start?

Okay... I'm starting over!

Just read through my previous blogs from last year.  I am going to stay really positive here.... I didn't succeed in my goals last year but........ I realized by reading through everything just how much stress I was under.  I got really sick last year - throwing up sick nearly once a week for two months.  At the time, the doctor couldn't figure out what was wrong with me, but looking back, I completely know - it was STRESS!  No wonder I couldn't make the diet work or see any bodily changes.  No wonder I got disheartened and gave up.  AND, it was a good learning lesson for me.  I had to learn to love my body just the way it was.... and I did.  I concentrated on the good parts (big boobs) and temporarily ignored the bad parts (big love handles).  Until my knees started to hurt and I realized that I was really doing my body a disservice.  So, here I am again.  Newly and freshly rejuvenated.  I feel healthy, I have stamina, I am sleeping well, and I have support.  BAM!

My starting weight - January 1 - 213.8!  Wowza!  Haven't weight this much since I had my babies (and I mean just after!!!)

Todays weight - 199.0!  Saweeettttt - I've lost 14.8 in just 27 days!

And I might as well add some before pics....

A new week!

Here we goooooo... onto week 6 of my new life....

My coach changed up my workout routine, which was nice because I was starting to get bored.  I LOVE the new workout - it's super hard and very challenging!

She also made some modifications to my diet - this will be tough.  Not so much reducing the amount of protein that I'm eating, but rather removing one of my treats!!!  Now I have to make a choice - mocha vs chocolate at night?  OR none of the the above.... I'm strong enough to do this!

I can finally see a bit of progress in my pictures... which is a good thing because my girlfriends and I are measuring this week.  I don't want to let them down since I am running the Zulu challenge with them!!!!  I think I must have lost inches???

Some updated pics from February 13th:

Recharged!

Wrote my coach an email... kinda like a woah is me email.... yesterday.  "Why can't I make the right choices", blah, blah, blah!  She really put things into perspective for me!  She called me and gave me a good talking to!

Basically, to sum it up, she said this is a lifetime goal, not a three month goal.  So the weight loss will be slower, granted.  BUT, it will still happen!  AND, she also said that I might have 10 bad days like I did this weekend in a whole year... BIG DEAL right?  If I can look at this in terms of the big picture, which I have never really been good at, maybe I can succeed this time!!!!

I have to WANT my goal more than the BAD FOOD!

And if each bite after the first isn't as good as the first, STOP EATING IT!  It's NOT worth it!

On a good note - I ate great yesterday, went to kickboxing last night, and I feel excellent today!  On with the show!

Quit pouting and move on into my life....

Pick myself up again...

Had a beautiful weekend in Kaslo with my family... that's the good news.  The bad news is that I was weak... AGAIN.... maybe I should come to the realization that I can't make the good choice when it comes to food and just deal with it.... I don't know..........  I want to have less fat but I also want to eat the good food.  It's a lose lose... and I don't see any progress from day 1 to now, which is very discouraging as I have faithfully worked out four times a week...  My clothes don't feel any looser......... Ugh!!!!

Anyway, enough crying about it.... I WILL see the positive in that I'm working out and I MUST be getting in better shape right???  I feel really good when I work out - more energy and just better when I get out of the house a few nights a week.  It's good for my inner beauty.  :-)

Here's to the next couple of weeks...

Discouraged

I don't know why... but today I feel discouraged...  I feel like I'm not getting anywhere... My body looks the same to me and my clothes still fit the same.  AND on top of that, I STILL feel winded at kickboxing... where is my stamina?

*sigh*  Here are some updated pics... I AM TRUSTING MY TRAINER and I will keep on the plan she has given me!!!!

I NEED to see some changes soon though or I am going to be so discouraged....

I hate these pics....

On a great note, this is my cute little workout partner from Saturday morning.

Progress...

I've been doing pretty well so far... There have been mishaps... YES!  Management meetings in Edmonton overnight caused a rough go for me.  I'm feeling down, I text my coach and she sets me straight - MOVE ON!  Push a poop!  LOL!

So, I've moved on.... Yesterday I did great!  Today I'm back to journaling as I have a few things figured out now!

Breakfast: 1 scoop protein, 250ml rice milk, cocoa, instant coffee, 1 tbsp sun butter, 1/2 banana!

Snack: 8 egg whites!  Holy motherfucker!  It's a lot of eggs!

My workouts have been non-existent this week, but last week was very hardcore!  Tonight I'm back to kickboxing and tomorrow I will lift weights again!  Deanna gave me a new finisher, so I'm excited to try that!

These are last Thursday's pics, but I'm already feeling better!

Deanna, are you tricking me into cardio?

The beads of sweat after doing my finisher!